stuck!

hey ppl ..hows it goin? looks like no ones bloggin ..:( , neway am stuck in bangalore at he momen, cant seem to get outa here, shit luck! all me friends are leavin now to oz, I ended up workin for virgin comics..duno whether to be happy or sad..wish i were outa here , bangalore is gettin too suffocating figuratively and literally speakin..neway keep bloggin guys ..see ya ll around

over and out
ash

Happiness in anguish

It seems happiness does not need to be joy. I look around all the time and find people who live in their troubles, prolong their sorrow and simply keep their problems alive. I have not understood this but I see it more and more.
It's not fate; its not that you are cursed or have no way out of it. It's your comfort with grief. The world does not seem balanced if you're life is cheery and seemingly perfect. You create issues, turn easily solvable trifles into emotionally stressful mazes. For the people around, pity and empathy turns into disbelief and they become immune to hearing it. But is there a problem, or are you happy in your world of discontent. Happiness is after all a very personal sense of well-being; it doesn't mean you smile and laugh and play. Crying can be happiness. But somewhere along the line its a cry for help; or maybe it starts out as a cry for help. Difficult thing is when belief sets it. When you believe this is the way you must live. And you become terrifyingly happy. In that state a solution is unpalatable.

NO! How can it be that easy! NO! This is hard and I have to face this alone because nobody else understands and nobody else faces any troubles. Oh I wish my life were simpler... no you don't. You're happy.